Every year before my birthday came, I always had this moment where I look into the past year and review what development I had in my life. And as always, it kinda disappoint me because many things although not all, did not came true as I expect.
Although my friends and family, wanted to celebrate my birthday, I myself want a different one. I always had time with my family and friends, even if my schedules are tight. But with my birthday, I always wanted to spent it all alone, by myself. It is because this is my only time for myself. To reminisce, to evaluate, to plan for myself.
My father insist I should go home and celebrate with them. But I insist I will not. I said I will come home, but not on this day. I needed time for myself. I guess every body does. This past few days I was so loaded with work and deadlines that I needed to stay late in the office to comply with it. And for this month I still have tons to do. Audits, projects and deadlines to meet. That is why this birthday blog is published late.
So I woke up late on my birthday. I just lay down, enjoying the sun rays coming from my window. I can plan a lot of things for myself on this day but I chose not to. I said to myself, I will get up when I want to. This is my day and I think I had my right to do whatever I want.
My phone keeps beeping and ringing, from friends and families that remembered my big day. I thank them with all my heart. I am so touched with their kind words and greet. I answered them back as soon as I can. I was so happy they remembered my birthday.
Im so old to have a diary, but I still keep a notebook with me to write anything on it. My projects, my to do's, my wishlist, my researches, my blogs, blog subjects and other things. I sometimes have a memory gap, I lost track of some things I wanted to do or planned to do. So I think of having a notebook where I could jot it down. Every birthday, I had one for myself. I wrote down the things I wanted to do for myself for the whole year, so when my next birthday came, I will check what are the things I accomplished so far.
Although I was kinda disappointed on my last years wishlist, but Im still on it. I jot down all of the things I wanted to do for the whole year, till my next birthday. Laughing it off, I write down my still number 1 wish, to lose weight. There are couple more wishlists but I will keep it to my self for now. I have a strong feeling I will hit this wish this time.
So for now, happy birthday to me! Cheers!
